I'm learning so incredibly much about myself in this waiting period. I read recently on two new blogging buddies' posts about waiting. You'll find one here , read "When promise seems lost and you're sick of waiting". What struck me most in this is "Waiting stretches faith and tests our human condition." and "Unable to see the path before us, because if we saw then trust would be irrelevant" followed by "How do we follow promist to it's appointed time?"
And the other here read "When God Is Silent". What got me here was, "nothing prepares us for His silence" and especially Edith Hamilton's quote: "Faith is not faith until it's all you're holding onto."
We rush to try to make or create love because our hearts are lonely and we long to be held and loved and cherished. When we don't get the right person, or even a decent person for that matter, do we settle for less; do we lower our standards; or worse yet, do we then compromise our values, our principles, our beliefs, or our "selves" in order to please someone else to find us appealing and lovable? The problem with that is that we become someone other than who we really are. We suppress our true self. If we do this, we then become who the other person wants us to be...what they are looking for.
I don't know about you, but if someone can't, doesn't, or won't love me and accept me for "me", the true me, they don't deserve me. Cause I'm pretty dang special! I view myself as a wonderfully intriguing, beautifully wrapped gift that God has placed on the highest shelf. Only the man who is interested, intrigued, curious enough will do the work to delicately take the box off the shelf and gingerly, patiently unwrap it with awestruck wonder. He will peel away all the layers; those defensive wall that have built up from years of hurt (that, admittedly, I've tried to break down with God's help...but hey....I am human!)
I'm holding out for that man. The one who wants to discover the facets of who God created this creature, Merana, to be. And that takes time....careful, prayerful consideration. Not tear open the package & say "Well, looky here what I found."
We are a treasure....each of us....brought forth by the Master creator! It's time to start thinking of ourselves as such!